Long read: Would you describe this as depression?

its not only you, everyone is struggling in there own small way, some have worst some have even none. you're 14 female, you can make a difference in your life, you can change your life, change your current situation, be positive and make the most of it. .. you're thinking short term.. think long term.. dream, plan, 5 years ,10 years and 15 years of your life , how do you plan to get there? how can you achieve that dream of yours. but you need foundation to where you are going. if you want to get out from where you are, you have to dream. nothing is impossible